by Alex Jacob » Sun Aug 03, 2008 4:34 am
One might propose: That even if you 'scanned' the whole world, you'd only see what your prejudice allows you to see. By your reckoning---and this is the crucial part, the axis---all the world is lost, deluded, etc. With the exception of about 60 persons, in which group you include yourselves. (Some Australian shit-kickers who are barely literate and a Canadian dude living with his parents).
The pretentiousness in this is quite absurd, if you really consider it.
You have made yourselves the grand arbiters of both 'enlightenment' and 'genius', and no one of you is either! What conclusion is possible but that your ideas about yourselves are pathological? It is a neurosis you engage in. Intellectually, no one of you can compare himself in any sense to the 'geniuses' you admire, whom you seem to hold up as a shield for your neurosis. Let's face it, intellectually you are not first rate, nor second, nor even third. Forth-rate and under is more likely. To recognize this and to work toward improvement is necessary.
No one has any ultimate and final idea of what this life is, what we are doing here, and what the ultimate measure of success is. True, any of us can attempt to answer that question, and it is a noble thing to make that effort, to dedicate oneself to it. To look into the sayings of great men is infinitely valuable. But one still lives in an embodied context. One still has to work. One still has to find a way to contribute to culture, to the world, to humankind. There is no way around this.
Sane people, who also have their feet on the ground, come to sane conclusions about what is attainable and what isn't. To live sanely is the goal. To incorporate knowledge so that it serves elevated ethics. One can make noble efforts to better oneself, to excel, to contribute---these are 'enlightened' goals, and many people can access them, incorporate them.
But this is not, somehow, what you-all are talking about. If it were, the path you recommend could be said to make sense, it could have some reach, it could be considered relevant.
Personally, I have no more to discuss or to learn from any of you. The gift you have given me, despite yourselves, is to be shown in no uncertain terms what happens to people who go off on an abstract tangent, an orbit that moves away from the Earth, from internal cohesion. To my way of seeing things, you-all demonstrate how people can get lost, not how they find themselves. I recognize in you, because you blow them all up, flaws that I must correct in myself. We are all susceptible to these errors, and that is one of the meanings of this branch of modernism, this breaking off from self. This moving away.
You are not teachers, you are warnings.
Ni ange, ni bête