I'm out travelling now so I havent' been online for a few days, nice to see there is still some discussion going on. The weather in England is absolutely fantastic by the way, we're doing a good job of that ;)
Cahoot wrote:Ztoneburg wrote: Got any words of advice for a newbie?
If shedding a significant chunk of ignorance doesn’t render you mute, then refrain from attempting to speak for awhile after the ignorance is shed, in order to acclimate to and function in a world where there is less of what you thought you were.
I do find it at times slightly frustrating to not have anyone nearby to discuss what I now think are interesting questions with or who have shared a similar experience. I'm suddenly very good at "small talk" since I just naturally empathize with the person I am speaking to, and it's pleasurable, but it would be nice to be able to bring up some ideas or concepts that most people would either simply not understand or just deem you crazy for.
The friend I am staying at is highly intelligent but (crazy coincidence) lost his son on the same day that I stumbled into satori. So his emotional state isn't terribly positive and I'm not appearing to have much of an effect on that. Most likely due to me trying to have an effect on it.
Today I had what I call a "mini-satori" which have been happening regularily. It's basically a built in "reward" that my brain seems to give me when I've passed certain "check points". I remember when I had the satori experience how my consciousness and ego sort of "compartmentalized" the insightsI had gotten in order to shield me from the impact of them. I think my organism once it came to a certain point just pulled the emergency brake and went "Ok, we're not ready for this. We have to start shutting this process down or it's going to break the system.". Today the piece I got back was what I've chosen to label the "Oh shit!" sensation when I finally reasoned myself to the "end". Very simmilar to Dennis previous description of the universe being set up as a joke, where the obvious reality is the serious bit and the ultimate reality is the punchline. This was the "Oh shit!" realization as I recall it.
It's kind of funny because I seem to be playing a game with myself, where I've locked away information in my brain (I remember the process but not the information) and am being fed parcels as I keep evolving and becoming more ready to assimilate it. It's always the same pattern, a sense of bliss, beauty and stillnes, and a sharp (but sometimes ambigious) parcel of remembrance. I think this was pretty much a way to make sure I didn't go insane (yeah, that didn't work out so well according to some here... ;)) or kill myself (that part is still working).
Things like this are obviously impossible to communicate to "normal" people, but since I don't really care about what people think I will sometimes bring up subjects close to it, to see if they are open to move forward. It's been some mixed results but since I'm foreign people probably just label me as eccentric (poor and disheveled people are crazy, well dressed and mannered people are eccentric).
I think I'm going to drop the idea of talking about it to others completely now, especially after reading your advice. I've also found a new and rewarding practise. I will observe people and mentally/emotionally sort "switch places" with them, meaning imagining and feeling like I am them. I tried as a form of meditation today and it gave some interesting and rewarding feedback.
