If unconditioned existence is what you desire, if a "sense of peace", which you identified as being one of its qualities is what you want, why are you attaching your I am to conditioned, divisive thoughts such as "faulty?" I am That, remember?
I actually don't mind relative existence.
I enjoy being for the most part.
experiencing emotion like boredom, strong interest, enthusiasm, sadness, joy is OK with me.
experiencing the nuance and ramifications of idea interest me.
I'm not in a hurry or desparate to flee.
for the time being,
all in good time.
being a pattern imbued with some modicum of wisdom affords not an entirely unpleasant experience of Maya,
with respect to conditions of course.
one can still travel freely and relatively happily through conditions however adverse,
if one has a mind capable of generating the detached perspective.
warmth for being,
there's a lot of skill in it.
Skill or Mastery turns me on as a possibility.
when I see it I admire.
Immersed in admiration is my favourite 'thing'.
and I have to experience existence to experience that.
for the time being.