Elizabeth Isabelle wrote:Animus, you know that not all females are the same. There are politically incorrect generalizations that may have some validity (not saying that is the case in this instance) but the opportunity should be there for females so that the door is open for those who are qualified, and if that is the appropriate path for them.
But see, part of the thing is, I don't any such women, nor have I ever met one. And I can be very cynical about my experiences with women. My current girlfriend reminds me in ways of what Rowden said in one of his videos about the highest attainment of woman is to become a philosopher. My girlfriend wears the garments of a philosopher, but day-in and day-out she proves to me that her primary focus is on our relationship to each other. If I desire to share an insight into the nature of anything from Egotism to the decoherence of quantum superposition, she will find some way of twisting it back into a relational thing between her and I. She seems incapable of considering anything in and of itself or at the very least independent of herself. I doubt she could ever keep something top secret, she can't even consider the possibility of truth when her subtle emotional self-protection is at work. How is she going to suffer torture and death? And this is one of the most down-to-earth girls I've ever known.
Sure the potential is there, but that potential is currently lamenting the insanity of her work-environment, her social victim status and the shitty boyfriend she has that doesn't appear to devote any of his time to her. All the while her rage at the situation is causing her to drive them all further away. She is such a victim, so hard done by, and at the same time, so completely perfect.
For example; I was exploring the relative similarities between terms like God and Nature and looking at ways in which "atheists" attribute "God-like" qualities to terms like "nature". For example;
"The imagination of Nature is far, far greater than the imagination of man." - Richard Feynman
My girlfriend's reaction to such an inquiry was "It's a interesting post. A few hours ago, you said to me that I don't get excited by truth. Other people seem to get excited about the ideas/truths you present, but instead you see me get excited about nature. Which you seemed to indicate was a disappointment to you and a downfall of mine. Then you post above, which to me (paraphrasing) says that nature is reality is god is truth. So then you have your answer. I am excited about truth because I get so excited about nature. You won't even watch a nature program with me and the cats, it's a waste of time to you, where as it always amazes me. If I can see rules of reality through studying various species and their strategies and get excited by that, it's better than any ideas/truths presented because it's a living walking embodiment of truth with the purest unbiased examples. The buffalo doesn't care what I think or isn't going to change for me, it's just is. It has no delusions of choice but lives the rules of reality and there's no ego inside confusing the buffalo with grandiose ideas."
Her response has way more to do with our personal relationship than it has to do with the point I was making. But I notice how it ties many threads together into a gross justification for lazying around on the couch watching David Attenborough while claiming to be performing spiritual work.
A few weeks ago she got into a car accident and one night she dissapointedly rolled over in bed to say "I wish you would think to give me a massage when I am hurting." and I thought this was pretty demanding. She restated "No, I just wish you would." and I said "It still sounds like you are disappointed in me, as if its something I 'should' have thought of. The fact is, I've maybe received one massage in my whole life, and I've spent most of my life alone so massages just aren't a big part of my consciousness. It doesn't occur to me to get or give a massage. I just deal with muscle tension by enduring it." and she "But I was just in an accident!" and I "I understand, but that alone doesn't ensure the notion arises in my mind, if you want a massage kindly ask and I'll give you one." "But I shouldn't have to ask you, you should be concerned enough about me!" Finally I said "I wish you would show some excitement at some of the truths I uncover in my studies, you don't seem to show much excitement at ideas at all." and she "I'm sorry your ideas don't blow me away." and I "They aren't 'my' ideas, they are ideas or truths in abstraction, I don't want you to be blown away by 'my' ideas, I want you to understand them yourself, know them to be true and I wish you would feel some excitement at the same time, but you don't, and it's not up to you to fulfill that wish for me, but I think it would be in your best interest if you took truth a bit more seriously."