Education or Environment that Initiates Socialization
Posted: Thu Jan 27, 2011 4:48 am
Education or Environment that Initiates Socialization?
Or is it within one's self-motivation that prompts one to be social?
Or is it the encouragement of others that prompts one to be social?
It seems humanity as a whole are social beings, that the recluse is the oddball. Being an oddball myself and knowing it, I struggle daily not to be an oddball. I catch myself each time when I'm being an oddball and I feel silly for it, and immediately change the oddball in me, to suit the person I'm speaking with.
Being a recluse doesn't mean that I cannot be social, I'm an expert at being social. I chose to be a recluse from childhood, I didn't wish to follow anyone but myself!
I like to socialize with people, but not for very long. I cannot go to social functions, or places where large crowds gather. I hate going into the grocery store, I don't go to movie theatres or swimming, or anywhere masses of people are.
My main outing is to coffee shops and when I journal for stories. I'm trying to get myself out of reclusive behavior by going to brown bag lectures every tuesday, between 12:00-1:00 which are educated speakers on different topics at lunchtime, so people can bring a lunch with them.
I think being reclusive holds me back from being and doing all I could in life. Something caused my reclusiveness from childhood, I remember crying everyday of my life when I was 5 years old, the neighbor would bet with my oldest brother that I would cry today, my brother tried to persuade me not to cry that day, that he'd give me a dollar if I didn't cry, but I cried anyway. That sadness is still very deep within me, and I don't know what it is. It seldom ever shows itself to me, but it is there nontheless. It may have simply been that I wasn't getting any attention. I have no deep rooted emotional problems, only the sadness reigns within, but even that is starting to subside and leave me, because I haven't felt the sadness for about 3 years now. The emotional happiness within me dominates over the sadness that never did dominate my emotions.
I am well disciplined, but human enough to recognize behavioral inferiority.
Familiararity allows people to put their guards down, to be comfortable with others. People learn to behave themselves around others, because it is others who keep others in-line. But, as a recluse, I keep myself inline, and have the respect of others.
Or is it within one's self-motivation that prompts one to be social?
Or is it the encouragement of others that prompts one to be social?
It seems humanity as a whole are social beings, that the recluse is the oddball. Being an oddball myself and knowing it, I struggle daily not to be an oddball. I catch myself each time when I'm being an oddball and I feel silly for it, and immediately change the oddball in me, to suit the person I'm speaking with.
Being a recluse doesn't mean that I cannot be social, I'm an expert at being social. I chose to be a recluse from childhood, I didn't wish to follow anyone but myself!
I like to socialize with people, but not for very long. I cannot go to social functions, or places where large crowds gather. I hate going into the grocery store, I don't go to movie theatres or swimming, or anywhere masses of people are.
My main outing is to coffee shops and when I journal for stories. I'm trying to get myself out of reclusive behavior by going to brown bag lectures every tuesday, between 12:00-1:00 which are educated speakers on different topics at lunchtime, so people can bring a lunch with them.
I think being reclusive holds me back from being and doing all I could in life. Something caused my reclusiveness from childhood, I remember crying everyday of my life when I was 5 years old, the neighbor would bet with my oldest brother that I would cry today, my brother tried to persuade me not to cry that day, that he'd give me a dollar if I didn't cry, but I cried anyway. That sadness is still very deep within me, and I don't know what it is. It seldom ever shows itself to me, but it is there nontheless. It may have simply been that I wasn't getting any attention. I have no deep rooted emotional problems, only the sadness reigns within, but even that is starting to subside and leave me, because I haven't felt the sadness for about 3 years now. The emotional happiness within me dominates over the sadness that never did dominate my emotions.
I am well disciplined, but human enough to recognize behavioral inferiority.
Familiararity allows people to put their guards down, to be comfortable with others. People learn to behave themselves around others, because it is others who keep others in-line. But, as a recluse, I keep myself inline, and have the respect of others.