Hello Everyone,
I've been searching for a forum for awhile to connect with similar folk. I have an isolation dilemma. I'm thirty and a poet working diligently on combining poetry, music, audio information, waveforms, etc. using computers. I live in a small coastal city two hours drive from the nearest metropolis. I have two close friends here and my parents. Once in a blue moon I'll venture out into the social scene, but just feel alienated most of the time, which is frustrating because in my adolescence I was very friend-oriented. It seems,over the years, as I have drawn closer to the Muse and became more local to my authentic g----s, I can relate to most people only as Strangers. I quit intoxicants awhile back, and while my mind is clear and I'm on a positive spiritual path, my relationships with Humans tends to be oppositional and uncomfortable. I pay bills delivering pizza and working at a deli, and am awaiting the results of an interview I had for an entry-level IT position. I dislike Mensa because those IQ tests lean heavily toward "tweek-mind" rather than creativity and conceptualization in which I excell. I can do all the Math, but I have to study consistantly to maintain those abilities. The other writers, artists, and musicians here seem so limited, but I can't afford to move to a larger city right now. I hate feeling as if I am better than my restaurant co-workers because of my g----s, but while they're discussing Oprah, I'm in a trance over the socio-political implications of various turntable cartridges. Most of my pals from back-in-the-day are dead from overdoses or muddling in alcoholism. They were my tribe, "were" being operative. Recovery circles offer the same disillusion. Boredom. How do y'all get along in a world where the Village Idiot is despot of the First World? Oh yeah and I'm an extreme INFP, have survived PTSD from childhood trauma, and identify myself as masculine only to push through all the rubbish strewn in my path by North Carolina SUV-driving Soccer Mom Deer Hunting post-Helms....and this is my hometown.
antimime.
Isolation?
Re: Isolation?
Are you still friend-oriented, Antimime?Antimime wrote:
I've been searching for a forum for awhile to connect with similar folk. I have an isolation dilemma.
Is this the most satisfying thing you have come across?I'm in a trance over the socio-political implications of various turntable cartridges.
Re: Isolation?
I suggest you check out MacJams. You don't need to be on a mac to find it a good place to check out people's work, and post your own.Antimime wrote: I have an isolation dilemma. I'm thirty and a poet working diligently on combining poetry, music, audio information, waveforms, etc. using computers.
If you post anything there, let me know, and I'll check it out. (I have two things up there, and they are just jams, sketches more than a finished product.)
I quit intoxicants awhile back, and while my mind is clear and I'm on a positive spiritual path, my relationships with Humans tends to be oppositional and uncomfortable.
Your first step is to talk referring to people who are just like you as "Humans". The second step is to realize you have an enflamed ego, and the third step is to try and destroy it. After the third step, you'll come to realize that you haven't accomplished anything and you're in the same place as you were before, but now with more experience which helps you cope with the situation.
Your first step is to talk referring to people who are just like you as "Humans". The second step is to realize you have an enflamed ego, and the third step is to try and destroy it. After the third step, you'll come to realize that you haven't accomplished anything and you're in the same place as you were before, but now with more experience which helps you cope with the situation.

