My questions and concerns, and my views
Posted: Wed Mar 30, 2016 1:42 am
First things first, I am excited. Excitement is a double edged sword, it makes the moments exciting, but, less clarity of thought. Sometimes when I am deep in the night I have clarity of thought. Night is feminine though. Perhaps feminity can contribute to genius, maybe genius is a combination of both genders. As far as excitement goes, sometimes its a case of "Get thee behind me Satan", othertimes, the feeling is welcomed.
Since I am excited, I can't say my post exactly how I was going to say it. But it is important. I feel like I am Enlightened, but I am not sure if I am. I am not sure what Enlightenment actually is. I just feel it is so. For instance, many things we think are real are just feelings. For example, people say we have "3D" vision. Well actually we don't have 3D vision, our vision is 2 2d images with an alpha overlap. Essentially it renders as just 1 final 2d image. It feels "3D" because our nerve endings activate in one eye causing eye ASMR type feelings. It is not actually 3D vision, it is 2d vision linked with eye ASMR type feelings giving the feeling of 3D images poking at you.
So back to Enlightenment, I'm not sure what it actually is. I just feel like life is meaningless and futile. I feel like ego is a fuel and juice to do things. I don't see ego as inherently evil. For example, as Enlightened I don't see what the point of making a business is. I am already dead and my business is already dead. Does it matter if I'm rich or poor maybe it does, because I could have higher quality of moments. Well do I care about my moments? Don't know if I do. Think I do though, because its a matter of fighting off demons. Demons always telling me I don't have a high enough ratio of good moments in my life. That I'm alone. That my life has no substance. But at the same time, these Enlightened demons tell me "Why bother"? Why make a business, when you're already dead? Plus, all these people you can't relate to. Better off to be alone than around annoying people you can't relate to. See, me and the demons can't make up our minds. Should we do things, or not do things? Should we socialize, or not socialize? Ego is kind of a juice a fuel to give meaning to our lives.
But more on this. Can't spell lives without lies. But are our lives living lies? Can't say. Are we already dead, or are we eternal? I got some questions. Is Buddism true or is it a lie? Point being, is I don't want to rebirth into Earth, and Buddism says that it is possible to rebirth onto another planet when your body dies. Is this the truth? I don't want to go to the grave not knowing. What is the path that is to be taken? Reason being is I don't think Earth is "the garden of eden" as is described in the blog, and i don't want to rebirth into it. I would be grateful if anyone can show me the path out of the chamber of 32 doors.
I will explain why Earth is not the garden of eden and why I don't want to rebirth into it. Though moments are finite, they still exist. some types of pain is good, others are bad. For instance, sadness can be a good type of pain. But imagine if you had a nerve condition where you were in constant excruciating pain. That would be bad. So rebirthing into a body or world that gave you a lifetime of bad moments like this, would be bad, and not 'garden of eden'. Another possibility, is you might get stuck and constantly rebirth into these same type of bodies, without the power to change your path. This would be bad and horrifying. Therefore it is imperative that we learn the path to escape Earth's spawn cycle, if such a path exists, and to determine if it does, and if it does, how to take it.
Now you might say that Earth's spawn cycle is decent. That only 10% of life is pain, and that's an acceptable ratio. I wouldn't say it is, because let's think of the universe as operating in frames. Now, the very concept of frames is absurd but lets use it as a thought method. Let's imagine ourselves as little entities who are generating new frames for each new moment. When we are in pain, it takes more processing power to generate frames. Thus, pain is the same as laggy frames, and goodness is the same as highspeed frames. Therefore, time takes a new identity. According to the calendar, only 10% of our lives are pain, but since 'time flies when you're having fun", actually it means that way more than 10% of our lives are pain.
Now, some people want to exit existence because they feel Nature is "too much" for them. But sometimes it feels the other way around - nature is "not enough". Its the same tropes, procedurally generated vistas. We've seen one tree we've seen lots of trees. we've seen lakes and grass before. In the modern age, with computers and all sorts of entertainment, you might say "never a dull moment". But life is littered with dull moments. Nature is not only "too much", but "not enough'. Now you might have escaped the cravings, but what is the point of escaping cravings? You're still at square one. Being god can be dull. Escaping samsara can be dull. The dullity of a moment is wholly dependent on chemicals and thought types. For instance, when we are dreaming about nature, it is rarely dull. So you try to alter your thought types to produce the appropriate chemicals but it can only go so far. Eventually you thirst for a rebirth out of Earth space. Because the bottomline, is your enjoyment is dependent on chemicals. People say they are happier as Enlightened, but that is because they have altered their chemicals. Enlightenment itself is not inherently happy or unhappy, it is simply an altered outlook. The real gravy is the chemicals.
Now you might ask, why do chemicals feel good or bad? I'm not sure why myself. Chemicals are bit different than our visual field. Our visions sees existence as it is, or at least coherent relative to itself. But things like tastes and feelings, they are transformed into tastes and feelings. We have a chemical image, which is somehow transformed into the taste of garlic. The transformation process is incredibly mysterious. The human platform may still have potential as a masochistic platform though. With modern medicine at the helm the main issue is social mechanics causing an unbalanced game. I'm a bit tired of the Earth game but I believe with some tweaks the human platform may be salvageable and has potential as a good host of consciousness. The question is, who needs saving? How do we know everybody on Earth is sentient? We don't. In fact, some of them may not be sentient. The very idea of multitudes of consciousnesses (realities) being active in the same calendar time seems logically incoherent. Free will is also incoherent. Free will is simply a cluster of neurons gaining energy, if it reaches over 50% threshold action is taken, if not, the other part of your brain that you are hearing says something negative. Otherwise, the part of your brain you identify with says something positive, in conjunction with the cluster of neurons gaining energy, creating the illusion of agency. That is not to say, that paths cannot be taken. Paths are always forged, and finding and forging new paths, this is simply part of the Cosmic plan. I don't want to go to the grave not knowing what will happen.
So I guess my question is, is Buddism true and can/does one rebirth into better worlds?
My assertions are many, but my questions are few.
Since I am excited, I can't say my post exactly how I was going to say it. But it is important. I feel like I am Enlightened, but I am not sure if I am. I am not sure what Enlightenment actually is. I just feel it is so. For instance, many things we think are real are just feelings. For example, people say we have "3D" vision. Well actually we don't have 3D vision, our vision is 2 2d images with an alpha overlap. Essentially it renders as just 1 final 2d image. It feels "3D" because our nerve endings activate in one eye causing eye ASMR type feelings. It is not actually 3D vision, it is 2d vision linked with eye ASMR type feelings giving the feeling of 3D images poking at you.
So back to Enlightenment, I'm not sure what it actually is. I just feel like life is meaningless and futile. I feel like ego is a fuel and juice to do things. I don't see ego as inherently evil. For example, as Enlightened I don't see what the point of making a business is. I am already dead and my business is already dead. Does it matter if I'm rich or poor maybe it does, because I could have higher quality of moments. Well do I care about my moments? Don't know if I do. Think I do though, because its a matter of fighting off demons. Demons always telling me I don't have a high enough ratio of good moments in my life. That I'm alone. That my life has no substance. But at the same time, these Enlightened demons tell me "Why bother"? Why make a business, when you're already dead? Plus, all these people you can't relate to. Better off to be alone than around annoying people you can't relate to. See, me and the demons can't make up our minds. Should we do things, or not do things? Should we socialize, or not socialize? Ego is kind of a juice a fuel to give meaning to our lives.
But more on this. Can't spell lives without lies. But are our lives living lies? Can't say. Are we already dead, or are we eternal? I got some questions. Is Buddism true or is it a lie? Point being, is I don't want to rebirth into Earth, and Buddism says that it is possible to rebirth onto another planet when your body dies. Is this the truth? I don't want to go to the grave not knowing. What is the path that is to be taken? Reason being is I don't think Earth is "the garden of eden" as is described in the blog, and i don't want to rebirth into it. I would be grateful if anyone can show me the path out of the chamber of 32 doors.
I will explain why Earth is not the garden of eden and why I don't want to rebirth into it. Though moments are finite, they still exist. some types of pain is good, others are bad. For instance, sadness can be a good type of pain. But imagine if you had a nerve condition where you were in constant excruciating pain. That would be bad. So rebirthing into a body or world that gave you a lifetime of bad moments like this, would be bad, and not 'garden of eden'. Another possibility, is you might get stuck and constantly rebirth into these same type of bodies, without the power to change your path. This would be bad and horrifying. Therefore it is imperative that we learn the path to escape Earth's spawn cycle, if such a path exists, and to determine if it does, and if it does, how to take it.
Now you might say that Earth's spawn cycle is decent. That only 10% of life is pain, and that's an acceptable ratio. I wouldn't say it is, because let's think of the universe as operating in frames. Now, the very concept of frames is absurd but lets use it as a thought method. Let's imagine ourselves as little entities who are generating new frames for each new moment. When we are in pain, it takes more processing power to generate frames. Thus, pain is the same as laggy frames, and goodness is the same as highspeed frames. Therefore, time takes a new identity. According to the calendar, only 10% of our lives are pain, but since 'time flies when you're having fun", actually it means that way more than 10% of our lives are pain.
Now, some people want to exit existence because they feel Nature is "too much" for them. But sometimes it feels the other way around - nature is "not enough". Its the same tropes, procedurally generated vistas. We've seen one tree we've seen lots of trees. we've seen lakes and grass before. In the modern age, with computers and all sorts of entertainment, you might say "never a dull moment". But life is littered with dull moments. Nature is not only "too much", but "not enough'. Now you might have escaped the cravings, but what is the point of escaping cravings? You're still at square one. Being god can be dull. Escaping samsara can be dull. The dullity of a moment is wholly dependent on chemicals and thought types. For instance, when we are dreaming about nature, it is rarely dull. So you try to alter your thought types to produce the appropriate chemicals but it can only go so far. Eventually you thirst for a rebirth out of Earth space. Because the bottomline, is your enjoyment is dependent on chemicals. People say they are happier as Enlightened, but that is because they have altered their chemicals. Enlightenment itself is not inherently happy or unhappy, it is simply an altered outlook. The real gravy is the chemicals.
Now you might ask, why do chemicals feel good or bad? I'm not sure why myself. Chemicals are bit different than our visual field. Our visions sees existence as it is, or at least coherent relative to itself. But things like tastes and feelings, they are transformed into tastes and feelings. We have a chemical image, which is somehow transformed into the taste of garlic. The transformation process is incredibly mysterious. The human platform may still have potential as a masochistic platform though. With modern medicine at the helm the main issue is social mechanics causing an unbalanced game. I'm a bit tired of the Earth game but I believe with some tweaks the human platform may be salvageable and has potential as a good host of consciousness. The question is, who needs saving? How do we know everybody on Earth is sentient? We don't. In fact, some of them may not be sentient. The very idea of multitudes of consciousnesses (realities) being active in the same calendar time seems logically incoherent. Free will is also incoherent. Free will is simply a cluster of neurons gaining energy, if it reaches over 50% threshold action is taken, if not, the other part of your brain that you are hearing says something negative. Otherwise, the part of your brain you identify with says something positive, in conjunction with the cluster of neurons gaining energy, creating the illusion of agency. That is not to say, that paths cannot be taken. Paths are always forged, and finding and forging new paths, this is simply part of the Cosmic plan. I don't want to go to the grave not knowing what will happen.
So I guess my question is, is Buddism true and can/does one rebirth into better worlds?
My assertions are many, but my questions are few.