Hello. I just wanted to you reply to you, OP, so I made this account.
Genius is something which has man in its power. It is the non-negligible duty to put in to the world what you have in your mind. In that way, you could say it is a moral affair. It is the act of choosing to put forth what you see - in your mind or put before you in reality. It is a duty and privilege. Often, genius represents something of the infantile - personally, I judge perhaps a bit higher those who appear more infantile in look and with higher understanding and consciousness in the mind to be a higher genius - to be an infant in the world of madness with the consciousness of the highest few. The infantilism represents a bit maybe the task and the necessity that the genius must fulfill and uphold to be classified as such and to live up what it means to represent before you honestly and sincerely what you have in your mind through all the hardships of life. This takes a toll on most people and as such only the rarest few can stay true to what their task commands them through the battles of life. The child has all ears and eyes open and as such is the most optionally open learner. The geniuses that reach fame has coupled this with a mass talent. Often, genius is the result of extremity in the genes and the fulfilled duty to live up to what your mind represents for you. It would be easier to run to madness and live with the notion that much things are going wrong in the world or the image or reasoning you have before in the objects of desire will be unexplored, that notion is unendurable for the genius. So it does what it must and thus the genius has enslaved the man and crackles him with its whip to go where it wants to. Why? Because the man must do what the images of attraction in his mind tells him to and live up to notion of what it means to represent before you what you see in your mind. The duty-full notion of living up to what the center of the universe required him to. To do else, to negate that impulse which you think will move you and the realizations of your images in the right way would be to fail the conundrum of the universe and the genius cares too much about that to do that. This requires the rarest of men; to not succuumb to excuses and not abandon or fail that project or image which you think is necessary. You can have talent which is ability and will, and you can have genius which is the route of fulfilling your task of living up to what the image commands you, which includes discovering, describing, shaping and putting into the world that.
Genius as a human live on passion and emotion. They are too entangled and animated by the imagination and reasoning within their fields of talent that their genius challenges them with and that they cannot deny because of the duty they feel and thus remains on the path of genius with the beatings it takes. Geniuses cannot put these things down, because they are powerless to them. Their talent and the duty they feel is so strong that it leaves them powerless other than to chase down in the attraction and the corners of the landscape and the world that the model represents for them in their field. In this way, they love the subject. Probably because of their personality and intellect as relating to the field. So they have this passion that is directed towards the model of the world they have and towards the subjects of their talents, and they cannot let it go because the pull is too strong and the duty too high.
Often, famous creative geniuses such as Einstein and Da Vinci have a consciousness that is shared with few of the world. This comes from the talent and the execution of their task. Thus they are weighted the most by the implications of the reality of life. In themselves but also too a high degree in others. They see the disorder in the system and the necessity and inevitability of the forces that compel us to do as we do. This is part of the tragedy of the consciousness and that which genius must not let down and fight with fire and fierce in the way of their subject. You could say that is part of the duty they feel, the social duty; the other is the personal duty, the duty to represent what they think is their innermost core and the flame which they carry around, the "I cannot do otherwise". They cannot always explain why, but it would fail the core of the universe in that little way which they represent. In this way, you can also say that genius is of the soul, it does what it does because it cannot do otherwise, it must do what it does to represent its soul; to be, live and bring forth that which its mind compels it to. This again too is a heavy toll on the person and thus many break off into splitting itself into what it can do and not what it must do. Genius cannot live with representations that its mind gives it without doing something about it. It would be conflicting and what you could call madness.
Often, genius has something cracked about it; it has its strengths and has its failures and lackings where its weaknesses show. It has one foot in the camp of madness and three feet in the camp of sanity. Thus, it is a conjectured representation of sanity which is though higher than far most people in the realm of their talents and builds on the base of the necessity to live up to what the capabilities of the genius allow. In this way, you could also say that often the genius serve a higher form of consciousness; it does not fall prey to the mismanners, promises and hauntings of man, it serves a higher consciousness born out from the images of the necessity of the system and the failures of the system of which everyone including themselves are part of. From this comes the duty, to live up to and use what was given to them to shake this consciousness and perhaps, perhaps, perhaps, widen the miniscule gap of vision into Mother Nature that we have as a species and confront the feed that comes from reality.
The genius is so extreme and always in some ways weaker that it has some idiosyncrasies where it weaknesses fail to follow along its strengths. This may have something to do with the cracked parts of the genius, you could say. It hates incompleteness and wishes to fulfill its potential to its extreme and thus has some parts where it does not fit in you could say. The creative genius, and all creative people in general perhaps, uses its libidinal energy towards this creative pursuit and thus is engulfed in this product.
The creative genius does not let down the product or the soul of the being they inhabit because to let that down would be to let down the representation of the universe and they love the subjects which is within their talents and the representation of the universe that presents them to.
Genius loves truth because truth is the only thing that may invoke the conflicting problems of the world and bring them into light to take a look at them and from them discover and find a better representation of the universe that may enlighten more of that problem and make more possible a solution based on facts to serve the purpose to live up to what has been entrusted to them. Genius respects truth because truth is higher than themselves and others; truth describes, weighs and decides in the end. Thus the genius creates a project born from the image in their mind tailored to their person, manners and limits that will most revoke and inform them of the core or truth of things. Therein comes the hardship and the inability to turn down their attraction and their duty. As such they are enslaved by their genius for better or worse.
Genius is a part of madness and sanity where some of the parts of truth has been picked out and is attempted represented in the world. It governs from reason and imagination and thus will some times be in madness and sometimes in sanity, it must do so to find out what the truth is; it is extreme and represents a sensibility and sanity higher than most in some areas. It must pay for what it has been given and does so one way or the other.
Now, I just wanted to reply to you because you seemed earnest, honest and with a good amount of sensibility, and this is what it turned into. Take it for what it is, not read through.