G. Alex Bjornstrand Yaʿakov a.k.a. "the Usurper".
Gustav Bjornstrand wrote:Since 'human personality is the crown of world-evolution', as too is developed ethical life and logical thinking, you'd certainly better understand why I can see no good reason to undermine and kill off self. I would not propose 'graveyards' therefore. But what would I propose? Universities! Centres of remodelling. Purification centres. A cure for 'amnesiacs' and 'lip-moving ghosts'. I suggest a fuller incarnation in this world, not disincarnation from it.
Human personality is a manifestation of something for sure. Like climate is or social mood inside a larger grouping. Perhaps the suggestion of death is more akin of addressing global warming or insane human consumption levels. Nobody is suggesting blowing up the whole planet or destroy all civilization to get there. But
something has to fundamentally change rather quick since a gradual, evolutionary approach does not always work. If anything the human psychological development of the last 10000 year is
not evolutionary in terms of biology or any other known, described process ("world-evolution" is
your term). It seems more a radical, rapid flux, a lightning bold of some kind. You need to adjust your scales a bit in your thinking. Sometimes your thoughts seem so small that I need a microscope to recognize them :)
So young, so fresh, so new, so incomplete is our self-undermining of unreflective religiosity, and yet how connected to religious origins are the various philosophical avenues that opened out of religious concerns.
But the origins of all major religions are
all pointing to addressing death or after-life and the rituals surrounding it. The focus on being alive here and now, in a "life time", in "historical time" is really a modern, recent thing. Religion invoked cyclical time, not ticking on any personal watch.
Or, at least in your case, are given over to a resignation in regard to *all this*. It crumbled in you, you crumbled with it, you are crumbled and have limited means to remake yourself. You of course as a post-Christian and a tired, dying European whose final psychological eggs have been carefully located in a semi-Buddhist basket but who has resigned himself to 'inevitable death'.
But I'm not even claiming I'm alive in the sense you seem to talk about, which is not the same. It's unclear of course why you'd call anything I say "resignation" since most of my writing here is challenging you and others. While I cannot deny the various post-christian and European sentiments running through me or the environment I'm soaked in, it's not crumbled at all. Generally I like to believe that I've reached a life peak of mental capabilities, increased sensitive ranges and understanding of subtleties and complexities I did not experience before to this degree. If the price to that was to let one or two things "crumble" and go to waste: good riddance!
Of course the reason I put some work in answering you is that I can see you're examining material the way I'd do myself if I had not stumbled upon the truths of existence, being and ignorance -- the problem of seduction -- which can help
tremendously in your journey of trying to "make sense" intellectually, if that's what you desire. And I think you do. But you don't seem to be even aware where that desire comes from, what is fuelling it.
That doesn't mean I'm belittling or rejecting the activity. But it might just go better if a bit more
self-awareness would be added to the mix. You're swinging hurt around, like a wounded animal. People respond with offerings and suggestions, that's in the nature of people to do.
My ideal is to forge a conceptual path - perhaps in that Johannine way I have referred to - where the 'living water' I have spoken of is 'real' to me not just in the zone of faith or idealism, but in a more unified sense: spiritually, intellectually: in the body.
The modern Freudian "body as destiny" and yet such rebelling against the modern! That's just
your stupidity "in a nut shell". You found what you
really want somewhere "hiding" within the discussions or people dwelling around this forum but you don't like it. And then we have to witness this ever-repeating ritual of ingestion and spitting it out. It's not the first time people stumble over the truth and decide it's another stone to grind down in their search for "the stone".
Power is fascistic. Using power is fascistic. Recovery of self and use of self is the opposite of cowering in loss of self or wounded self. It is also masculine recovery.
Masculinity is all about production. You wanting to produce and "own" your self, your woman, your child. Still better than being someone's woman or child, trying to be a man, I suppose.
My confrontation with GF has pushed me back into myself and has demanded that I 'answer' and 'respond' to the invitation to die.
But you don't know yet what is supposed to "die". You're looking at some unemployed dude and believe it's about ending participation in life, intellectual thought and avoiding all social struggle and sexual power games you might enjoy. Now even the smallest spiritual reorientation might change people's evaluation of how important the material or social achievements are, or how compatible they are with a thinking life. But that's not what was being addressed. Although it's not a secret that most of society is depending on buying into an emotional, sentimental scheme before participation is even possible. A thinking person needs to "stand apart" first and that takes a price. This is not yet "death" though and I think you might confuse these things.