Laird: There are no maybes about it for me. Not only am I conscious, but I'm capable of observing my own consciousness, and what I've described is simply the way that my consciousness works in my observation. I'm not, however, saying that it's the whole description - for all I know another part of the synthesis is the injection of divine inspiration at crucial moments; I'm also open to the idea that part of consciousness is some acausal process that might be termed "truly free will" even though I have very little inkling of how that process might be described.
samadhi: Okay. I just don't think saying consciousness is deterministic helps. That is just defining your conclusion.
I'm not saying that consciousness is
necessarily deterministic though. Look up above at what I wrote and you'll see that I specifically commented that I'm 'open to the idea that part of consciousness is some acausal process that might be termed "truly free will"'. And truly free will is totally opposed to determinism.
samadhi: I am not arguing a lack of will, the power to act. I am arguing that motivation is about ego.
Laird: Well sure, motivation is about ego, however I'm arguing that ego is both inevitable and inescapable (for conscious human beings, including the enlightened).
samadhi: Well, it's my understanding that enlightenment is from the ego, not by the ego.
See, it's statements like this that make me so skeptical of the traditional Eastern brand of enlightenment. If enlightenment is not
by the ego, then what's the point in chasing after it
with the ego? You read the Tao Te Ching and listen to lectures by Adya and that's probably only the tip of the iceberg of the ways in which you seek enlightenment with your ego. It's utterly contradictory.
And what exactly is this distinction that you're trying to make between "from the ego" and "by the ego" anyway? I really don't understand what you're trying to say here. It doesn't seem to me to be a concrete distinction.
This isn't the only issue that I have with Eastern-style enlightenment either. Ask someone who believes in it to describe exactly what it is and all that you'll get in response is something that in the end boils down to "it's ineffable". Sure, we can say a couple of concrete things about it such as "enlightened people are compassionate", but when one asks for a plain and simple in-a-nutshell description, one comes up a blank. For example: is enlightenment a state; is it an understanding; or is it an attitude? Ah, but pose these questions to a true believer and all that you'll get in return is something vague like "No, enlightenment is none of these things. It is ungraspable." No one ever wants to pin down exactly what it is.
How is a sensible person to respond to this sort of vaguary? I put it to you that the only rational reaction is "Well, if you can't describe it clearly, then it's a meaningless concept. How is one to even determine whether oneself or someone else is enlightened when one can't even define it succinctly in the first place?!"
No,
Sam, this kind of wishy-washy thinking is not for me. It's as faith-based (in the worst, irrational sense) as any other set of religious beliefs. One has faith in this "ineffable" something (and it's telling that I have to use the word "something" there in place of a more specific descriptor), but because one doesn't even have a concrete idea of what exactly it is supposed to be, one is essentially placing one's faith in a phantom.
Sam, I don't know you particularly well and I really hope that you don't take offence at this, but my opinion is that in this regard you are simply credulous. If you think that I'm being unfair to you then please describe clearly and succinctly the essential nature of enlightenment (state? understanding? attitude?).
One thing that I will say of QRS-brand enlightenment, albeit that there are aspects of it that I disagree with, is that it certainly doesn't suffer from the problem of vaguary: "Enlightenment is the complete absence of delusion" - it doesn't get much more concrete than that (on the other hand some of
David's ramblings about "going beyond duality" are, as I've already commented, in my opinion quite vague).
My personal version of enlightenment differs in several ways from the version of enlightenment that you believe in. For one thing, you seem to mostly believe that enlightenment is an all-or-nothing affair: you give
mikiel much credence and presumably that extends to his story of having a sudden breakthrough in which he lost his ego. What in the world does it mean to lose one's ego though, and in what way does it change one? I'm going to take a stab at it, and if
mikiel's reading this then hopefully he'll clarify it for me: presumably one realises and experiences some feeling of oneness with nature and has the feeling of one's boundaries dissolving. Neat, that would be a pretty cool experience! But then...?... In what way is one any different for this experience, even assuming that this feeling of boundaryless oneness persists? One still has a mind that directs one's actions. One still has a body that functions in the physical world. Life goes on as a human being: that much is inescapable. Life is a series of choices to behave well or to behave poorly. In what sense does this breakthrough experience impact upon those choices? And if the answer is "not at all", then I don't consider it to be particularly enlightening, it's just a bit of a fun trip to be on.
For me, enlightenment is a matter of degree. Enlightenment is made manifest by how effectively one makes one's choices in one's life. Ask me whether enlightenment is a state, an understanding or an attitude and I can give you a firm answer: it is all three. The more enlightened a person, the better s/he understands how to think and behave as well as how other people think and why they behave as they do; the more positive, appropriate and balanced attitude s/he has to life: enlightenment is a state of heightened awareness.
samadhi wrote:Ego as I am discussing it is the idea of self as a distinct entity, particularly a body/mind. Enlightenment doesn't get rid of the body/mind, they are quite useful as a persona, but they are no longer seen as self, as what I am.
So to "discard (or to 'transcend') the ego" is simply to "realise" that certain things that one once considered to be oneself are in fact not oneself. I put it to you as I put it to QRS that all that you're describing is an intellectualisation: one simply chooses to not view certain things as part of one's identity anymore. Fine, and...?... Again, I'll ask: in what way does this meaningfully impact upon the way in which one lives one's life? As far as I'm concerned, such an intellectualisation has no practical consequences. Life goes on as a series of choices, whether you choose to view the agent making those choices as "me" or not. And I can't imagine the adoption of this intellectualisation as having any significant impact upon the way in which I make the choices in my life. As far as I'm concerned it's for the most part an irrelevancy. I'm not interested (except as an intellectual curiosity) in abstract ideas about who I "really" am, I'm interested in working out how to more effectively live my life.
samadhi wrote:And please note, there is nothing bad or wrong with having an ego or believing one is an ego. Whatever you want to believe, if it works for you, that's great. It's only when what you believe isn't working, can you become interested in something else.
So in what way does your interest in the idea that the mind/body are not really a part of the self "work" for you, practically speaking?
samadhi: Why would enlightenment care about prestige or intrigue?
Laird: Well that's the million dollar question. The million dollar answer is: "because such people are not enlightened, they are obfuscatory, semi-mystical (in the irrational sense) frauds".
samadhi: Not everyone who teaches enlightenment is a fraud. You are appealing to cynicism. And the basis for your appeal is that what they say does not conform to your belief.
Yes, that's exactly the basis of my appeal, however in contrast to what these "enlightened" people are teaching, my belief is
reasonable: that all actions of conscious agents are motivated.
samadhi wrote:The point isn't for you to believe what they are saying, it is about your own interest. If what they are saying appeals to you in some manner, then you can investigate on your own. If it comes across as nonsense, then you will ignore it in any case. Either way, you must find your own path, no matter what anyone says.
Well sure, but that's all a bit trite. I
am finding my own path, and I'm trying to describe it to you. I'm by no means treading the path that I'd like to be treading particularly well, but at least I know where I'd like to be, as opposed to reaching after an illusion.
samadhi wrote:[W]hen it comes to enlightenment, you must rely on others until you can speak from your own experience. It's not a bad thing to get a little guidance. It doesn't mean you just swallow everything whole. It's okay to ponder things without passing judgment immediately.
I first came into significant contact with the Eastern version of enlightenment in my final two years of high school back in 1993/4 through one of my subjects, "Studies in Religion". I'm certainly not passing "immediate" judgement. I gave the concept a good go. I "relied on others" to explain what enlightenment was. I found, though, that the explanations were for the most part too vague and contradictory to be taken seriously.
Now don't get me wrong, as I wrote earlier there are definitely
aspects of the Eastern version of enlightenment that can be described clearly. It's just its
essential nature that is ineffable (and hence in my eyes meaningless). Some of the solider aspects of Eastern enlightenment are:
* compassion and generally "moral" behaviour
* treading a middle path between ascetism and over-indulgence
* an understanding of the nature of reality.
As far as those aspects go, I'm pretty much in agreement, although I don't think that the type of understanding of reality preached by, for example, Buddhism, is the same as the type of understanding that I'd like to cultivate: that understanding is particularly abstract and in my opinion largely irrelevant. I'll add that I believe that QRS generally conform to this understanding of reality: in particular I'm referring to notions of "emptiness" and "non-inherent existence".
samadhi wrote:The Tao Te Ching uses poetry because the Tao is ungraspable. You cannot use math and science to discover it. If you are looking for something to grasp, go with science.
Yeah, see, this is the kind of wishy-washy thinking that I'm talking about. "The Tao is ungraspable". Then what exactly is the point of it? If there's no meaning to be grasped at, then why do you present it to me as if it's meaningful?
samadhi wrote:But then, please be honest and say you are not interested in the Tao or enlightenment.
I'm interested in the Tao to the extent that it's fascinating to me that so many people take so seriously something that by your own admission can't be grasped and hence is largely meaningless. Sure, it makes for great poetry, and those who've been following my contributions to this forum from the beginning will already know that I really dig paradox, but as for the paradoxical writings in this book being of any particular use to me in guiding my behaviour and understanding: they're just not. I'll qualify this paragraph by saying that it's been a while since I really looked seriously at the book and for all I know I'd find more use for it were I to take a thorough look again.
As for enlightenment: no, I'm not interested in the vague phantom of the Eastern tradition; yes, I'm very interested in the further development of my personal understanding of my own version of enlightenment.
samadhi wrote:The point isn't whether it is better to be actively involved or not. There isn't one way to be in the world.
Sure, but there are more and less
responsible ways to be in the world.
samadhi wrote:And no true teacher of enlightenment says "drifting along in harmony with the Tao" is what it's about. The verse is about surrender. Maybe you have no interest in surrender. Maybe you're not there yet. That's fine but it doesn’t mean that surrender can be safely ignored when it comes to approaching the Tao. It just means you are not interested.
I'm at the very least interested in working out exactly what you mean. Surrender to what?
Surrender is generally about
giving up. Now, you would probably like to couch this in a favourable light by saying something like "one 'gives up' one's attachments to worldly desires". Fair enough, and I appreciate that kind of surrender. I want to note though that there's another way of viewing surrender, and that is that it is the decision that it's impossible to make a realistic difference in the world - to give up on effecting change. Such surrender is in my opinion irresponsible and far from commendable.
Laird: Nevermind, Sam, that's not really directed at you, it's more of a harsh self-criticism. Here I sit, idly composing - largely for my own indulgence - semi-relevant posts to a semi-relevant corner of the internet, when on the other side of the world people suffer under brutal regimes, starve in poverty and generally suffer in ways that I can't even imagine. All I've managed so far is to sponsor a child through some charity, and even that wasn't a particularly conscious decision, I simply couldn't bear to say no to the woman who approached me on the street and asked me (quite assertively) to make a regular contribution - it just made too much sense.
samadhi: Your self-judgment is more of a hindrance than anything you actually do. If you want to help people, then help them; if you don't, then don't.
Fair call mate. It was a bit of a (drunkenly) self-indulgent paragraph really. If I were truly enlightened then I wouldn't judge myself harshly anyway because I would always act rightfully.
samadhi wrote:What you do isn't as important as who is doing it. Passing judgment is the ego's way of being smart while not actually having to prove how smart it is. It conveniently divides itself into the one who knows and the one who doesn't care so it can enjoy its pronouncements while dismissing them at the same time. It's a setup for failure, which the ego of course enjoys because it reinforces the judgments. What would happen to the ego if you didn't judge yourself? I bet it would be very pissed with you. It hates to be ignored.
You're doing something a little strange in this paragraph: you're talking about my ego as if it were distinct from "myself", whereas the ego by my (and the dictionary) definition
is my self. Granted, you've clarified that by your definition, ego is the mind/body, but in this you deviate from the dictionary definition, which says nothing about mind and body but describes it simply as "the self of any person". In other words, me and my ego are one and the same, and to say that "it" would be pissed with "me" is to construct an artificial duality out of a singularity. But OK, I'll be fair to you and grant you your definition of ego as "a distinct entity, particularly a body/mind". You claim that the enlightened person no longer sees the body/mind as the self, but this leads to the obvious question: what
does the enlightened person see as him or herself? I mean, s/he still uses the words "me" and "I". So exactly what does s/he mean by these words then?
samadhi wrote:Well, in my experience I don't look for motive in order to act.
It doesn't matter whether you look for it or not, it's there regardless.
samadhi wrote:I act and then maybe later if things don't go well, try to figure out why I did what I did.
Right, and the fact that you do that indicates that you
do believe that your actions are motivated.
samadhi wrote:The point is that motive is really about justification.
No, it's not. Justifications can mask real motives.
samadhi wrote:Look at something huge, like the invasion of Iraq. If it had gone well, would anyone have cared what the motive was?
Is it relevant whether anyone cares? The motive exists whether anyone cares or not.
samadhi wrote:Liberty! Freedom! Democracy! Yeah! But it didn't go well. So the search for motive which is just a means of justification.
The motive is the true reason for the invasion. The justification is the way that the invaders try to avoid censure.
samadhi wrote:Enlightenment is not about awareness of the ego's motives, it is about awareness that the ego itself is just a thought. And like I said, becoming aware of one's motives isn't a bad thing. Just don't mistake it for enlightenment.
I can't really say any more in response to this than what I've already said: that we simply differ here on what constitutes enlightenment. To me, a belief that "the ego itself is just a thought" is a pretty waffly one, is not a particularly helpful one, and is not part of my conception of enlightenment (which is admittedly different to the traditional one), whereas becoming aware of my motives greatly enhances the effectiveness of my behaviour, which is quite an enlightened thing to do. To me, that's the main reason to meditate: to "clear blockages" - in other words to reconfigure one's system of motivations so that it is an enlightened one.
samadhi wrote:samadhi: Please note, there is nothing wrong with becoming more aware of your motives. For an ego, that's a good thing, by all means, become more aware. But you still seem to have the idea that enlightenment is about knowing more and having more control.
Laird: Yes, I do. As well as being the enlightened way to live one's life, it's also the responsible way to live one's life.
This may be our core disagreement then.
What do you think about this quote from the New Testament:
He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it. (Mat. 10:39)
It's a very basic teaching, you don't get there by getting, you get there by losing.
To be honest with you, I had to think a little carefully about that quote before I saw how it related to our conversation. Yes, it can be interpreted as being about surrendering control of one's life. "Losing" one's life might not be - as I initially interpreted it - about death, but rather about loss of personal control. As for what I think about it, it doesn't make a great deal of sense to me.
How exactly does one "lose" one's life in the sense of giving up control? As I've been arguing, one can't avoid being motivated. In this sense, one
can't give up control. All that one can do is to try to choose (as far as is possible - some motivations are pretty ingrained) one's motivations wisely. I think that a Christian would interpret it as giving control over to God - in other words, praying for guidance, reading the Bible and attempting to follow in Jesus' footsteps: turning the other cheek, loving God and one's neighbour, etc. Somehow I don't think that you're a Christian though and I would guess that you have no particular belief in God either.
samadhi wrote:I certainly understand where you are coming from, but I don't think you have a clear idea on enlightenment teaching. Wisdom is certainly a big part of it, but it's not all of it. Without the surrender, wisdom becomes another accoutrement of the ego, knowledge to wield and display for its benefit.
I certainly don't claim to be an expert on enlightenment teaching, but I get the general idea: as I've written enough in this post, it makes little enough sense to me that I've constructed my own slightly alternative version of enlightenment. The ego is unavoidable. One can certainly become less selfish, but one cannot live without a self (ego) altogether.
samadhi wrote:I'm fine if you don't want to look at what others have discovered. You have to discover it all for yourself anyway. But then you cannot discuss about what the teaching is or what enlightenment points to. All you can do is give me your belief about a motive for everything. Since the belief obviously applies in your life, it can't be wrong for you. But what about others? Mightn't they have a different experience?
You haven't been able to explain to me how that would be possible, beyond saying that they might act according to their nature, which as I've already argued is to admit that they are motivated.
samadhi wrote:You are using the word enlightened in a watered-down sense.
I prefer: "alternative sense".
samadhi wrote:Bill Gates ain't enlightened.
Well we agree there. The guy's company has engaged in some pretty immoral behaviour, and enlightened people don't behave immorally.
samadhi quoting the Tao wrote:
The Master does nothing,
yet he leaves nothing undone.
Laird: If I liked inane contradiction then this would be right up my alley. As it happens, I'm pretty unimpressed.
samadhi: The Tao Te Ching teaches with paradox. Do you understand how something seemingly contradictory can be true at the same time? Do you understand why paradox can provide insight where a straightforward description cannot?
Yes, I love and use paradox myself. I have a collection of self-created insights and affirmations on my website, many of which are paradoxes. I just don't happen to find this particular "paradox" very meaningful. Let's take the second part of the sentence first: "yet he leaves nothing undone" - the implication is that he is
acting in some way: note in particular the word "leaves" which suggests some sort of activity that he is returning from; but then looking at the first half of the sentence we see that he is said to do "nothing". So by the second half of the sentence, he is acting in some way, and by the first half of the sentence he is not acting. This isn't a paradox, it's a straightforward contradiction. It isn't "seemingly" contradictory, it
is contradictory. There is no sense in it.
samadhi quoting the Tao wrote:
The ordinary man is always doing things,
yet many more are left to be done.
Laird: Yeah, and? This is a particularly trivial and useless observation. Not what I'd call high wisdom.
samadhi: You are taking it out of context. It is meant to be read with the previous passage as a contrast with what a master accomplishes versus an ordinary man.
OK, fair call. It has its place after all.
samadhi wrote:"No will of his own" points to surrender. Surrender isn't about gaining power from a higher source by giving up your own power. That is bargaining, not surrender.
It's surrender rather than bargaining because one doesn't "gain power" in the sense of personally benefiting, one rather acts as a proxy for the benefit of the higher power. In the end, of course, one
does benefit, because the higher power is benevolent and has one's interests at heart.
samadhi wrote:Dwelling in reality has nothing to do with "making the world a better place." That is simply a platitude. It has to do with knowing what you are. The same with letting go of illusion, the illusion of ego.
We choose to apply different interpretations to the words then. I'm sure that yours is more akin to what was intended, but I prefer mine.
samadhi wrote:Seeing what isn't within duality is about discovering what you are. Are you an ego? The question isn't meant to get an answer, yes, no, maybe. It is meant to get your attention. What are you really? Are you interested in looking?
I have a pretty conventional understanding of what I am, and that includes the possibility that I have a soul, and I don't see any reason to doubt or to challenge my understanding. It's tricky to express clearly, but roughly speaking I am an agglomeration of parts and processes roughly bounded by my skin, and there are parts that are more "me" than others - in particular my mind is more "me" than my body, and if my soul is a reality then it would be more "me" than my mind.
samadhi wrote:The whole thing is a paradox. Try or not try is all the ego understands. That's what its got, that's where you and me start. Is it where it ends? Have you ever hit a brick wall? Have you ever had that experience? You've tried as hard as you could but it just ain't working. At that point, it isn't that you can just turn around and say, "okay, now I'm just not going to do anything, maybe that will work." You simply give up, not only trying but not trying, as a strategy. Nothing works, period. Tell me what happened when you reached that point.
In my books, to "give up" is to "stop trying". It's not a third alternative, it's one of the two. So what happened when I reached that point is that I chose to "not try" anymore.
Laird: Your point seemed to be though to "trust in your nature", which seems to me to ignore the possibilities for learning new things that aren't in one's original nature.
samadhi: If it is your nature to learn, you will learn. My point was that enlightenment is not about learning something so well it becomes effortless. That is a skill. You can learn to do that. Nor is it about any innate ability. I am not saying kick back and let it come to you. Unless that's what you really believe. Whatever is working for you, do that. That is obviously where your heart will be.
Cool, that's all fair enough.
samadhi: I don’t think you see what I'm pointing to.
Laird: Apparently not. Perhaps you need to spell it out in more detail, because it seems contradictory/ineffable to me.
samadhi: The ineffable nature of what we're discussing I'm sure comes as no surprise to you. If enlightenment could be taught like mathematics, people would be out there getting enlightened every day. Doesn't happen like that, does it? Yet some are still interested. From what you've said, it's hard to tell if enlightenment is really interesting to you. You may be looking for something more literal than anyone can actually offer.
Exactly, except that I can offer myself a literal brand of enlightenment. You on the other hand seem to be looking for something to put your faith and hope into.
Laird: You acknowledge that actions can be "rationalised" but on the other hand you assert that the enlightened person has no motive. What in the world is the basis of his/her behaviour then? "He/she is simply expressing his/her nature" just doesn't cut it for me, because as I've already explained, when you analyse it, "one's nature" is as much a source of motivation as anything else.
samadhi: The source will always be a mystery, whatever enlightenment happens to appear. If you want to call the source a motive, I guess you can do that but my problem with it is that it muddies the water between how an ordinary individual decides and acts and someone who is enlightened. If you don't want to recognize a distinction, okay. I just think it is valuable to do so.
I'm happy to recognise a distinction if you can explain exactly what that distinction is.
samadhi wrote:The Tao doesn't say how you as a person should act, nor can it.
Nothing whatsoever? So there's no way to recognise Taoists other than asking them to identify themselves?
samadhi wrote:In fact it plainly says, a foolish man laughs when he hears it.
And the Bible says that foolish people go to hell.
samadhi wrote:It is not understandable on that level. It is pointing to another level where most people do not care to venture. The question is, are you interested? You don't have to be. But I would assume since you've come this far, there must be something in it that has got your attention.
Oh, don't get me wrong, I do find some value in it. The poetry is quite contemplative too. I was a little harsh on it earlier. It's just not a source that I can guide my life by because to me it doesn't have enough meaning.
samadhi: Okay. You have your own experience. You can describe it any way you want. From my standpoint, spontaneity is about letting go. You can't try to do that, nor can you learn it. As soon as you attach a motivation or reason to spontaneity, it is no longer spontaneous. Funny how that works, isn’t it?
Laird: Hey, I like spontaneity. It's a great way to manifest and express the joy of life to other people. It definitely has its place. I just question whether it should be the sole mode of one's actions. For example, I wouldn't be too impressed if George Bush decided to "spontaneously" let the nukes go at some random nation. I think that responsible people consider serious actions seriously, rather than acting spontaneously.
samadhi: When egos "try" spontaneity, problems arise. That's because the ego is using it as an agenda, not to think, not to care, not to be responsible. True spontaneity has no agenda, that's why you can trust it.
I don't believe that the argument that true spontaneity has "no agenda" is in any way a rebuttal to my argument that spontaneous actions can quite easily be the wrong ones, and that serious actions demand serious consideration. True spontaneity might have "no agenda", but it
will have consequences. What convinces you that we can automatically trust that the consequences of true spontaneity are positive ones?